I went to go check the last time I made a post and it was on June 22nd ... Today's July 21st. DDD: Honestly, I did not realize how fast time flies! Especially when you get carried away with certain things. I'm not aware of when it happened but I believe a month ago I started to struggle with one of my classes. I should of went to a tutor to begin with but at the time I felt confident that I didn't need any extra help.
Eventually I had to put my pride or whatever aside and go after that extra help. x: I don't know what it is about some us who are either too terrified or too modest or too prideful to ask for help. This applies to any situation. For me I suppose its just that I'm too polite and it causes me to not want to bother anyone. Also, I fear that I might create a bad experience just by bothering someone. Fears like, What if I encounter a mean, rude tutor? or when you think about asking your friends for help What if I annoy them or what if they think I'm a pest?
Those types of thoughts are inevitable, persistent, and they linger around. Though, they can't be helped. We naturally worry about any little thing that might cause a disturbance. All we could ever want is to just avoid any form of trouble, by any means. :c No one likes to take risks no matter how petty or serious they are. Funny thing is, we've all looked at someone else and rolled our eyes at how they can't overcome something that we're able to overcome easily. It's very difficult to understand others, even when you actually try to understand how they think. That's one of the reasons I guess to why people rarely ask for help ... due to the fact that not everyone may understand you.
Looking back on my post from June (Nachi's 20th birthday) ... On that same week I had went to an anime con and was suppose to write a post about it. -_-;
I'll take advantage now and show you guys the outfit I wore.
Oh god, that day was just awesome. :D I received so much attention that day, I've always thought that con goers didn't care for lolitas. lol A few people kept calling me cotton candy girl. xD It was definitely a memorable day and I even went to a movie theater in that outfit.
Note: This wig made me look VERY tan. I love the wig to death but I'll never buy one similar to this. I'm gonna stick to browns and blacks, even if it means black mixed with blonde or something.
Completed unrelated ... but, Who has seen HP The Deathly Hollows Part 2? :D I REALLY want to go see it but I still need to see Part 1. DDD: I just haven't found anyone to watch part 1 with me and I just haven't had the time. ;-;
I've decided to just come back and hopefully stick to blogging. This seems like a petty, on and off battle with myself on whether I should continue this blog or at least it seems this way for a while. xD
Either way, I just missed blogging for the sake of blogging. I missed the interaction it gave me with people who share similar interests with me. I shouldn't let my insecurities stop me from being on here. I have no other reason as to why I stopped so I'm going to go with insecurities. :p
I'm just going to start anew ... starting now.
Tomorrow (Monday for me) I start my summer term for college and this will be my ... my sixth semester I think. Two more before I can finally get my Associates in Arts. :P From there I can finally enter a University and continue on with my studies. I had a recent change in major where I went from Psychology to Accounting. This is going to sound silly but I really like the idea of just sitting in a cubicle and punching in numbers and information in a computer. xD I'm aware that's not all there is to the job but having your own cubicle seems like ... fun? haha. I did do a lot of research for accounting, and I'm pretty much aware of what the advantages and disadvantages. I felt like this career would suit me better compared to all the others I've looked into.
The recent decision was made because I feel like I'm not really much of a good student and so I won't probably make it into a Graduate's Program for Psychology. D': I shouldn't doubt myself but I've also realized that I would pretty much love to be done with school right when I get my bachelor's. With costs and everything, I just don't think I'll able to stay in school for that long.
(Unless something awesome happens like a grant or scholarship will come my way. I would stay and make it all the way to a Ph.D IF I was guaranteed free tuition. :D)
That's pretty much a recent update about myself. ^^; and about all of you ...
What is the one career you wish you could pursue and what is the one career you're actually going to pursue?
I wish I could major in theater or music. c: It's a lot of hard work involved but I can't help but to imagine how much fun it is to be able to play an instrument or act out an entire play.
Mood: Waking up Watching: Spongebob Squarepants Music: The Black Swan OST
Hey lovelies! Ah, it's been quite a bit since I've made an 'actual' post. On the 10th my Spring Semester started and even if it's just the first day, of course, assignments are already assigned and there are readings that need to be read. Not a problem right? That's what's been keeping me away, and also whenever I'm done with whatever I need to do I then start to harass my boyfriend if he's available for me to bother him. xD
For the past couple of weeks I've received some late x-mas gifts from both Leena and Nachi. :DD <33 Since Leena lives in a another city from me (She lives in Ocala and I live in Orlando. There's a two hour difference between both) she decided it was best to mail off her gift.
I LOVE how creative this girl can be. She made my package all pretty like. ;-; (I have this saved with all my other goodies from people)
Marie and Macarons ... and a small 3-D Sugarbunnies sticker attached? and some small Rilakkuma memopad sheets? I had the most cheesiest smile when I saw all this. She's really something for this. (she probably thought it wasn't much but I think otherwise!)
This was included as well. <33 I'm waiting on her gift to arrive but it's taking like a million years to ship out. I messaged the seller and they said that because of the new years and such that the package will be delayed ... Hope that's the case. -__-
The above is Nachi's gift, a Goofy Pookaloo and a nerd Goofy necklace. :'D If anyone reading is a follower of Nachi you would already know that last week we had went to Disney and that in all the pictures I'm holding onto the Goofy Pookaloo as if it was my own son. I was holding on to him the entire time at Disney. I was actually annoying both Nachi and her co-worker Josh by shoving the Goofy in their faces and screaming out 'GARSH' whenever I had the chance. xD Nachi's Disney post here
Thanks Ladies! You two mean so much to me. If only we got to see each other more often. ;A;
Couldn't help myself when I first saw these! The comic book on the right is the first comic book adaption of the first Tron movie and the magazine on the left is a movie guide to Tron Legacy. I want more stuff like the art book for the movie and a Tron Legacy prequel comic book called "Tron: Betrayal".
Do you love it when people include a letter in their gift?
Next post: Causal loli outfit, and thoughts about The Black Swan and The Green Hornet.
Today felt nice. :'3 I took my Renaissance exam today that was based off the the renaissance's Italian humanists. The night before I was so nervous about it, and freaking out. Since I had just started this new term, this was my first test for this term. The first test for a class you've never attended before always feels a bit worrisome. (especially when you have no idea about the way your teacher tests)
The exam ended up being better then what I thought. I was actually relieved once I was done, and kind of felt good about the test.
After the exam and after my mythology class, I met up with three of my friends: Huart, Julia, and Kevin.
All we did was talk about a lot of things for a long time. We especially talked about video games, and the consoles we currently own and the first ones we have ever owned. My first console was the Nintendo 64. :DDD I swear that once I had got this thing for christmas ... I literally ran through our apartment with extreme joy and went crazy. It was so damn exciting to receive such an awesome gift.
Almost everyone has seen this, and it's sooo old. Butttt~ I thought about my nintendo 64 days today, and thought about this kid. xD <333 I CAN RELATE TO HOW HE FELT. What was one thing that happened to you that you made you freak out like this kid? I've had some moments when I freaked out like this. lol Though, all I can remember now was when I first got the nintendo. That, and when I saw Ronald Mcdonald at a Mcdonalds a year back.
